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Im sorry i hurt you. seems like the least i can say to you and i’ll follow it up with letting you know i love you. More than you’ll ever know, more than i was ever able to show you but i hope you got the jist of it. Im not perfect, nor are you but you made life worth it i can honestly say it kills me to try and part myself from you. You may be right.. the damage done may stop us from ever really being “us” but if this love was true we should be able to do it.

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love. “

Damn.
- kanye.

thats how i feel. theres been casualties, me you and others. i stepped of and started something that i would love to end for you more than anything but at this point i dont want to hurt anyone else. Your understanding is all i ask, and possibly your approval. I seem like a villian, reason or not i tend to kill. see me as a vigilante because i failed to be your hero and nor do i deserve it. You’re my queen, and i will find my way back to you as soon as i can. if you find another before then or simply just lose faith in me i understand and approve of your decision, i know it’s for the best and all i want is for you to be happy. Do that for me please.. weather it be me or anyone else just love again, smile again, sing again..

live again. 

<3 xoxo

~ Dapper

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